2020 Vision | Dementia Vs Masterchef
April 28, 2020Let’s get one thing straight, I HATE THE KITCHEN.
I don’t belong there.
I belong on stage in front of an audience, this is my domain.
This is where I belong.
I am now in exile and have been for the last 18 months.
I chose this new context for my life.
My Mother’s Dementia means I can no longer live the life I created.
Being a professional Magician has come to a full stop.
Permanent?
I don’t know.
The Pandemic means Social Distancing will have big impact on people once this is all over.
This is my opinion, subjective as it may be, I don’t and will not perform magic for an audience that has any concerns over Social Distancing once the Pandemic is over.
I believe there will be residual impact for professional magicians once the Lockdown is over.
So my life is all about my Mother now.
18 months ago, I had zero brain pattern for being a Carer. I think my brain pattern for this role is now at 0.5%
Trust me, this good because I understand the full impact of looking after an elderly person suffering with this debilitating condition, this is no joke.
I can’t really think of anything else let alone the life I once lived.
To be honest, I am not even sure if the life I said good by to is where I need to good back to once this is all over.
I just feel different about it all.
What has all this got to do with Eggs and Guacamole?
Mum was hungry so, I checked out Youtube, watched a video of Jamie and Ramsey. I thought let me try this classic Dish.
I thought, I can make this, no different than learning a card trick, just follow the instructions.
So, Mum has enjoyed a really yummy lunch.
What’s the message here?
This is something I learnt from Anthony Robbins; “the quality of my life will be in proportion to how much uncertainty I can comfortably live with”.
Everyday is uncertain……that’s Dementia for you.
I have zero attachment to my identity.
Anthony Robbins taught us at his seminar to EXPAND OUR IDENTITY.
As a Gradute of Landmark Education, the greatest lesson I learnt was a simple distinction; in life, things will happen for sure. Who do I need become to deal with this issue?
So today’s Journal entry is all about Acceptance, Commitment, Expanding our Identities and remembering that real pure love is a demonstration beyond the norm.
What we resist will persist.
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