Enduring
August 9, 2022I sit quietly and just allow myself to be still in her presence.
She sleeps.
Drifting in and out of this strange reality called……Life.
Stillness is a beautiful space to be.
It allows me the opportunity to accept and be greatfull for everything.
While sadness is present, I am examining this feeling.
What exactly is sadness?
What does it mean?
Why does it feel so empty and meaningless?
I remembered when Alan died; I didn’t feel sad.
I felt EMPTY.
A massive context from my life died with him. Seeing him take his last breath was a strange privilege. I knew him from the age of 14 so it left me feeling hollow.
I still feel hollow.
I guess with my mother, I will feel even more empty.
Such is life.
There is no happy ending.
I am encouraged by Viktor Frankle from his book “A Man’s Search for Meaning”.
The only victory over suffering is that we endured.
“A thought transfixed me: for the first time in my life, I saw the truth as it is set into song by so many poets, proclaimed as the final wisdom by so many thinkers. The truth - that love is the ultimate and the highest goal to which man can aspire”.
Viktor E. Frankl
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